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What a life..
Written @ 7:28 PM
I have not been updating for very long. The last would be on my birthday. That's a really long while back. Like a few months. Soo many things have been happenning. Soo many unpleasant and not worth remembering kind of things.

I don't know why i let myself end up like this. It's not like i enjoy it but i let myself fall into these situations countless of times even though i already know the consequences to it, and everytime i face the music harder than the previous ones. Sometimes i wish life was so much simpler. No worries, no troubles, no nagging, no scolding. I could go through life better. Perhaps be a better person than i am now. But that kind of life is one you can only just dream of, think of and then you are face with the harsh reality.

I don't know why it is so easy for some people that when it comes to a certain age lets say 16 or whatever, they can automatically take on responsibilities, be responsible and take charge. For me, it is so much more difficult than that. I am 20 years old already but for me i feel like a kid trapped in this 20 years old body. Still needing guidance, reminding, help, support..you name it. Whenever i think about the future, adulthood and being responsible, i get scared. Scared of having to go through it all by myself after having had gone through the past years of my life with my mum being beside me. Holding my hands, going through with me step-by-step on every moment of my life and if i fall, she'll be there to help pick me back up. Well, not anymore and that scares me.

If i can at least have the reassurance that no matter what happens out there in that big scary world and if i don't make it, that i can always run back to you and hear you say that everything will be alright and that you're gonna be there for me then maybe that will give me that little bit of strength and hope to face the dreaded future, adulthood and be responsible. I could throw my fears away as well.

Right now i just feel like going back to being that small little girl in primary school. Just going through to life without a care in the world...